Different

I've thought about writing this post for several weeks but just hesitated. I've been thinking a lot about what our life would be like if we hadn't lost our twins in 2004. We'd have three very active toddlers. Christmas would have been even crazier than it was, but I'm sure that chaos would have been fun. How would Allie be as a little sister? Since the time she was just a few months old, I thought she would have made a better younger sibling. She LOVES to play with the kids and although she's very independent she does not play well on her own like most first-born children. I can imagine her playing with her siblings. But, God knows. He obviously has had a very different plan for our family than we did (do).

Allie is 21 months old today. In my perfectly planned little world, she would be getting ready to welcome a new baby to the family in the next couple months. But, she's not...not yet. My sister and I are 22 months apart and are very close. I wanted that for Allie. A sibling between 21 and 25 months apart is what I thought would be perfect. But, that's not what God had planned and in my heart I know that His ways are higher and better than mine. We pray that Allie will have a sibling soon that she'll be able to play with, but if she's the only child we have the priviledge of raising we are so incredibly blessed to have her. She is the light of our life. Man, I can't believe how much she has grown and changed in the last 21 months and I can't believe how much I love this fiesty, sweet little angel.